UNIVERSE
IF...

TO MY FATHER
 
IF I COULD FEEL AS YOU FEEL...
IF I KNEW HOW TO VIBRATE IN THE SYNTONY THAT YOU VIBRATE...
IF I COULD PERCEIVE YOU IN THE WAY THAT YOU PERCEIVE ME,
IF I HAD YOUR LIGHTNESS TO COME AND GO...
IF I KNEW HOW TO CALL REASON, AS YOU KNOW SO WELL...
IF I COULD LEARN TO LISTEN, AS YOU LISTEN TO ME...
IF I WERE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND, THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO...
IF I COULD REACH TO PERFUME THE ROADS AS YOU PERFUME THEM,
     TURNING THEM INTO GREEN FIELDS, CROWNED WITH FLOWERS
     THAT SCENT THE UNIVERSE, WITH THE MOST PURE AND NICE PERFUME
     COMING FROM YOUR UNIVERSAL LOVE...
IF I WERE ABLE TO STOP THE TIME
     TO KEEP YOU WITH ME; A LITTLE BIT MORE...
IF I COULD STORE AWAY, CONSCIENTIOUSLY,
     YOUR SLIGHTEST BREATH...
IF I HAD YOUR WISDOM, AND YOUR MAJESTIC APPEARANCE...
IF I UNDERSTOOD, AS YOU KNOW HOW TO UNDERSTAND...
IF IN YOUR EQUILIBRIUM, I KNEW HOW TO EQUILIBRATE MYSELF...!
IF I WERE A FEATHER, I WOULD FACE THE MOST TERRIBLE STORMS
     TO REACH AND MEET YOU...
AND, HAD I THE POWER, I WOULD SHAPE MYSELF INTO ARMS,
     I WOULD ASK YOU TO, IN A CHANGE, APPEAR IN ALL YOUR DIMENSION
     AND COME TO ME, AND SOFTLY LAYDOWN...
     I WOULD ROCK YOU WITH ALL MY LOVE.
     I WOULD SING THE MOST BEAUTIFULL MELODIES AND I WOULD LULL
     YOU ASLEEP WITH SUCH TENDERNESS THAT YOU WOULD NOT EVEN
     THINK IN, OR WISH TO WAKE UP...
IF I WERE A GIANT, AND I ALREADY WERE IN YOUR UNIVERSE AS AN ENERGY,
     I WOULD CALL ALL YOUR PROBLEMS TO ME...
AND IF I WERE NOT A GIANT, BUT A LITTLE ENERGY, I WOULD FIND
     MY STRENGHTS, I WOULD LOOK FOR THEM WHEREVER THEY COULD BE,
     TO GROW..., GROW..., TO REACH SUCH DIMENSIONS AS TO HELP YOU
     IN ALL WHAT YOU COULD NEED FROM ME...
IF I COULD, I WOULD MOVE AWAY WHOEVER, CAME AND WANTED
     TO PERTURBE YOU...
IF I WERE THERE WITH YOU, YOU WOULD KNOW MUCH MORE THAN WHAT
     YOU ALREADY KNOW, AS I WOULD SHOW YOU, EVEN MORE THAN
     WHAT I CAN SHOW YOU NOW...
IF I WERE THERE WITH YOU, WE WOULD HAPPILY RUN, OR WOULD IT
     BE FLY, OR VIBRATE, OR PERHAPS JUST CHANGE...?
     WE WOULD JOIN IN SUCH A HAPPY DANCE, THAT FOR SOME MOMENTS
     NONE OF US WOULD KNOW IF WE WERE JUST BUT ONE.
IF WHEN I REACH THERE, COULD I BE WHILE IN YOUR UNIVERSE,
     SO CHILDLIKE AS I AM NOT HERE,
IF I COULD UNDRESS OF ALL THE BITTERNESS KEPT, OF ALL
     THE LAMENTSI FELT, OF ALL THE SUFFOCATED ANGUISH...
IF YOU ALLOWED ME TO EXPAND IN THE MOST PURE SENTIMENTS THAT ARE
     RESERVED TO YOU...
IF YOU KEPT A CORNER FOR ME, VERY CLOSE TO YOUR FEET...
IF YOU ALLOWED ME TO MUFFLE YOU UP WITH MY CARESSES,
IF YOU WERE NEVER BORED OF THEM...
IF YOU COULD HOD ME, AND TELL ME THAT I WILL ALWAYS
     BE YOUR DAUGHTER, THAT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN...
IF YOU CONCEDED ME THE LOVE THAT ONLY YOU; KNOW HOW TO CONCEDE...
IF YOU GO ON LOVING ME... YOU ARE DISTANT TO IMAGINE;
     HOW MUCH I WILL BE ABLE TO DO.
BUT... IF SOMETHING HAPPENED, IF I COULD NOT STAY BY YOUR SIDE.
IF YOUR GIGANTIC PROBLEMS WERE THE CAUSE, FOR WHICH
     I COULD NOT GET CLOSE TO YOU,
IF FROM AN ETERNAL APPROXIMATE, CONFLICTS WANTED TO SEPARATE US,
IF THE PLACE BY YOUR FEET WERE OCCUPIED BY SOMEONE ELSE
IF YOU HAD NO TIME EVEN TO LOOK AT ME;
IF THE MISTERIES AND SECRETS THAT I DO NOT KNOW COULD KEEP
     YOU AWAY FROM ME,
IF THAT COULD HAPPEN... EVEN ACTING AS IF, BUT,
IF IT COULD HAPPEN, AND YOU FORGET ME, EVEN THEN, I WOULD
     STAY BY YOUR SIDE...
AND DO YOU KNOW WHY?:
 
I WANT TO BE WHAT YOU ARE. NO MORE THAN WHAT YOU WILL BE.
I WANT TO BE WITH YOU, OR I WILL NOT, I WILL NOT BE,
I WILL FIND A WAY TO SCAPE, BELIEVE IT
BUT WHAT I KNOW, I TELL YOU:
 
I WILL BE WITH YOU, OR I WILL NOT BE.
 
VALENTINA DE ANDRADE
February 4th, 1982
IF... TO MY FATHER
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